Today's Journey

I feel very overwhelmed today. I feel a sense of “being better”. I need to learn to be a better person overall. I get easily irritated by others. Why?! I am not better than anyone, I KNOW that I irritate other people. No one person is exactly alike, so why do I get irritated, I should just embrace our differences and move on. I vow, right now, to try to be better. I will try not to gossip, be slow to anger, and be happy. I am very blessed in life and should be grateful for the things I have.

I am anxiously awaiting a meeting with my boss about my position, where it’s headed, and what we can both expect from each other. I know this meeting will put a lot of my feelings about the company on the table and I pray that it doesn’t back fire. I think I have concluded that I would like to stay with Badger. I have good points for staying, but also good points for leaving. Hopefully these will be resolved in our meeting. I really LOVE my co-workers. Most of the people I work with are great, I am comfortable in my position, it’s a short commute, and I have freedoms I wouldn’t have if I switched to another company. I have been here long enough that I can take the afternoon off for a doctor’s appointment with no questions asked. I still have to clean the bathroom, but I guess I can let that slide.

My boys are on my mind this week, as always. My dad has to have surgery this week. He has to have some repairs done to his leg. The skin that had radiation 5 years ago isn’t healing properly. They are going in to move around some muscles and see if they can repair it. My brother’s blood cell count is low and his lungs are filling up more than they were draining. They now have to drain once a day instead of every other day. He has another appointment today. Please keep him in your prayers.

I have a lot of changes that I am wanting to make in the near future, some are physical, some are spiritual, and some are to the house.

We have quite a bit of painting and decorating to do to the house before Maria comes in town (that’s my goal to be finished). We have purchased the paint for the pool table room and a couple plaques to put up on the wall. I think I am going to make a vintage American Flag to put on the wall. I found one I liked but it was over $100. WOW, it really looked like something I could do! That should finish out that room. We will just need to paint the other rooms and rehang up the décor. We need to finish the landscaping in the back. We have done half of it. We are probably going to wait until it cools off to finish this.

Now on to the physical. Most of you know that I am a lot thinner than I used to be. I want to say this and I want everyone to understand it, “just because you are thin, doesn’t mean you are healthy”. It’s the truth. I am not healthy at all. I don’t work out, I don’t eat right. I am thin because I have a disease. Unfortunately, the disease has a lot to do with me not eating right. Most fruits and vegetables cause my stomach so much pain, that I cannot eat them. Therefore, working out is my only option. We occasionally walk with our neighbors, which is better than what I used to do (nothing), but it still isn’t enough. I have a goal of doing pilates 4 times a week. This isn’t really a huge time sacrifice. The workout only takes 20 minutes each time. I am also going to start eating small meals during the day, instead of three large ones. This should help my crohn’s.

Onto the most difficult, my spiritual health. As most of you know, I am a Christian. I do not say this to boast or for you to look at me any different. It means that I believe that Jesus Christ was sent to earth to show me how to live my life, to die on the cross for me, and to wait for me in heaven. I am so thankful for our awesome God. All he expects from us is for us to read his word, TRY to live our lives the way he says to in his word, pray and tell him when we screw up, and tell others about him. It sounds so simple, yet I screw it up daily. I wish I had a thirst for his word. I don’t, I have to work at it. I have to make a decision to sit down every day and read my Bible. Obviously, from my first paragraph, I screw up a lot. My biggest weakness is gossip. I am always trying to better this side of me and with my husband’s help I have gotten better about it. I have started to learn to open up and tell others about my faith. I don’t understand why I can tell a complete stranger or someone I barely know about my God, but I can’t talk to some of my closest friends and family. It’s something I have to work on.

Wow, this blog is ALL over the place. This is my journey and these are the real issues going on in my life today. Please pray for my growth as a Christian, for the growth of my family’s faith, and my family’s health.